One Girl Trying to Find Happiness Today…

I woke up this morning in a funk. The kind of blah mood that leaves me staring out windows and rolling my eyes at my to-do list.

It’s complicated when well-intentioned people ask me “what’s wrong?” and I pause for a second, trying to come up with some litany of reasons that would cause the questioner to nod their head in agreement. I really do wish I had a justified reason, something I could point to, an understanding of why I feel unhappy. But I don’t. Maybe I’m just tired?
But while I may not have a specific reason to be suffering from some lack of adrenaline today, I do know bits and pieces of what will move me away from this space. Certainly I’m going to go to bed early tonight. I am going to try to get at least one thing checked off my to-do list today (writing this blog will count!) I am going to pause for five minutes and add bullet points to my gratitude journal. I am going to go for a late afternoon walk and get some fresh air and hope that a few endorphins sneak into my body. And, I am going to go to Girls Night tonight, since it is my girl Stella’s birthday. It’s been long since I stayed out!

I don’t even ask myself if I want to go. Tonight, I fear, I’d vote against attending if I raised the question. So, I just go. It’s scheduled into my life the same way I wake up and go to work, brush my teeth, meditate and pray, watch movies with my son on Saturday nights, eat pizza with him too on Tuesday nights, show up in spiritual community (church) with him every weekend and check my email. We routinize those things that are significant to us, those things that matter. And friendship is one of them for me.

As it is for you. Whether you know it or not.

Each hour of social time quickly decreases the odds of having a bad day.  Hmm…. that explains a lot. I could go on and on, listing the evidence to support the link between our happiness and our social connections.

On the other hand, I find when I’m in a bad mood that I am more prone to want to cancel plans, withdraw, be alone or simply vegetate in front of the TV.

Typically as we feel depressed or low energy, our desire to interact wanes. And yet, counter-intuitively, I know that the best way to raise my joy is to connect.  I know this for sure coz every time I meet up with Stella, especially when I am unhappy, I get happy!

Therefore, I have a rule with myself that I don’t connect with people based on my moods, but rather based on my values. Anyone who has had any success with regular exercise knows the need. If I only went running when I was looking forward to it then I probably wouldn’t make it out there all too often! But for my health, for my happiness, for the things I value, for the life I want– I will connect.

So tonight I go to my girl’s birthday out. I may not be the chipper one, bringing my typical positivity to the others. But I’ll be there! And if science is right, arguably I should come home to my son a wee-bit happier tonight. Which could inevitably lead to another happiness booster?  May as well try everything!

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